I should note that I still disturb the (sleeping) dog or the wife or even my son from time to time, although I consciously try not to. Can’t prove that, though. I can’t do it on purpose. It only happens when I’m in “too deep” to even think of any preconceived plan. So I must remain a skeptical experimenter rather than a convert. Maybe it’s my skepticism that prevents me from going further, but I can’t totally abandon that, not ever in my life, so I’ll still muddle along.
It’s never boring.
For instance, here’s an example of “Things I Shouldn’t Be Able To Do:” I have a ceiling fan. Set to medium speed, which is fairly fast, I can sit in my chair, and on only a light dose of salvia, I can focus my eyes in front of me on the wall, and not move that focus; then, with my peripheral vision alone, never moving my eyes, I can focus on one single moving fan blade above me and easily track it around in circles, my attention never leaving that one speeding fan blade, with my unmoving eyes not focused anywhere near it. I can thus accurately count the RPM’s of the fan over my head while looking into my wife’s eyes and having a conversation with her about it!
Or I can focus on five, six, or even more points on a wall at once, again with no eye movement. No need to move the eyes, I just move my *attention* and that is not like visual focus; it allows more than one foci at once with ease. And when I say “at once” I literally mean it. My attention does not flicker from one point to the other. It divides into many foci, all at once. And my peripheral vision is very different, much sharper, at all foci.
Just a couple of the many, many phenomena I get to experience. I feel, to be honest, very lucky to have ever found this substance.
On (light doses of) salvia I can experience literally anything that you’ve ever read about any Yogi experiencing, and more. The so-called “Rising of the Kundalini” for example. It can feel like it practically blows the top of my head off in a rush of white light. I get to experience all that directly rather than just reading about how others have done it after 20-30 years of meditation practice.
(Interestingly, when I do that, the rising of the energy, or just normal intense meditation, the crown of my head gets sore, and remains sore all the next day with no salvia in my system)
I also experience something like layers or strata, that my consciousness passes through. Laminations, even. The wild thing about them is, as I pass through one of them, it’s like I hear many, many conversations at once, like literally hundreds of people all talking at once, as if the layer was made up of informational content! And I mean, like you’re in an auditorium and everyone’s having a conversation at once. Again, I have no words to really get the reality of it across to you. I read what I’m typing here, and it’s not even close to the experience, but it’s as close as I can come. Frustrating.